my memories
Monday, July 07, 2008
EDITED
I've done what i more or less could, and i feel strangely at peace. Of course, it was painful and frustrating, but we got through it. I have no idea whether the other party is honestly fine with me again, but i'll just stop imagining things, and i'm happy to take it as it is.
For those of you who have noticed, i've removed part of the previous previous post. And for those of you who have read it, i'm just gonna say my reading of it was apparently wrong. I still don't know what it meant, but knowing i was wrong should be good enough. So here it ends.
Goodbye chapter. Hello new one. =)
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Aside from all the negative stuff I've been going through, I've been doing a lot of self reflection. (and i do mean A LOT, to the point that i feel quite depressed) I guess it's time to put some thoughts into action.
Once this is over, i'll be moving to wordpress.com. feel free to ask me for the url. =) Thank you dear blog for being there for me for close to 3 years. Thank you dear readers for being part of my life by reading this blog, and especially some of you for helping me sustain it sometimes. Hah.
The main reason for switching blog site is simple really, i hope to make some changes for the better, and the switching sorta signifies that. I also intend to use it as a diary, and wordpress allows the locking of specific posts. If you're curious as to why i dont just keep a written journal, i think the fact that this blog has lasted longer than any of my journaling attempts is a good enough reason.
Dear God, thank You for being with me and molding me all these years, especially the more recent few years. As i continue to blog in another site, i pray that you will help me to make the necessary changes in my character. Thank You for answering my prayers, You truly are a redeemer, saviour and friend. In Jesus' name, Amen.
6:32 PM
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Sunday, July 06, 2008
I didn't feel like i belonged,
and I didn't want to try and belong.
So i left.
6:59 PM
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Sunday, June 29, 2008
EDITEDOh well, on a happier note, God spoke to Poiema through Aunty Patsy today. Thank You Lord or granting us clean hands and pure hearts! Help us to cling onto Your promise, and never let You go. Amen.
Dance went rather well, as a group, they looked pretty good. Just need to drill a bit more. I'm glad most of the youth were willing to join. Thank God really. Looks like He's started changing most of ou hearts already. =)
Also got a chance to teach the children in Agape after a month. I really miss them. Honestly touched by their sincerity and innocence. Also had another moment of "kids say the darndest things". Hah. Alicia claimed that her mother was "boss" of the family because her father tended to direct her to her mother when asking for permission. Lol.
It's going to be a hectic few months for sure. Can't say i'm prepared for it. This is definitely going to isolate me even more, since i'm already juggling my duties in a few ministries. I guess this year will be a time of testing of some sort. I hope i can cling on to God more than ever. I'm certainly thankful to Him for the break that he has given me. No dance this month, except for the worship week. This is due to the 2nd floor being under renovation, to join the offices of the Chinese and English side. Just another step to building a closer relationship with the Chinese congre =)
Definitely an exciting period of change coming up. I don't know why I foolishly thought that the changes would only take place last year. Now that I think about it, the period of change is probably going to be a few more years, i sense the pace picking up.
Speaking of changes, i'm thinking of moving to LJ. Just the need for... well, a change =) Still thinking about it, but i'll probably get round to doing it... someday. hah.
10:35 PM
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Wednesday, June 18, 2008
frustrated.
trying to apologise, but it's so hard to
especially when the opportunies are taken away from me.
the more i'm afraid of what the outcome will be,
the more i'll try to avoid it.
but no, i must keep trying,
or the friendships i hope to grow, will be affected.
i'm trying to reach out and give in. but do you realise it?
11:09 PM
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Sunday, June 15, 2008
Woah, it's been a pretty busy week for me. I prepped dinner with my parents on monday night for Aunt Regina. She graduated first class with honours from NAFA! Congrats! I forgot what subject she took though... =S So anyway, the menu for dinner that night was Lemon-ginger marinated shrimp (for which the marinate was totally delish), toasted tomatoes with mozerella cheese(i love cheese! =)), mashed potatoes with mushroom sauce, salad, and steak! Nainai had grilled fish though, since she doesn't like steak. I also finally know how to make lemon lime and bitters! Fantastic drink i discovered in Australia. Ahha. The wonders of the internet aye.
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Then tuesday and wednesday was spent prep-ing for the B2ASE Youth camp that was on Thursday till Saturday. I think overall the camp went well, and although there were still moments where the youth and the BB boys segregated, we managed to form a comfortable relationship with each other. The BBQ was most certainly evidence of that when we all just came together and mixed around, and had fun. Thank God for blessing the weather for the entire camp. His presence was most certainly felt.
One of the newer things in the camp that i tried was eating Gong, i think it's called, basically, SNAILS! MMMMMMMMMmmmmmmm..... Delish! I was sitting with En, Rach Lim, Lyd, TiongWei, and Joel Wong when I saw a plate of snails approach Jason and Iris' table. I was feeling a little adventurous, so i tried it! And Joel Wong tried it too. Haha!
I'm afraid I'm too lazy to blog a detailed account of the camp, but it was most certainly fun. This is despite having to leave halfway for King Lear production at night. Speaking of which, Yanni, Aq and I finally took photos! Haha. Now we no need to complain about never taking photos in the rare times we go out. We're suuuch hardworking students. Hoho. =b But that picture, i'll wait for Yanni to send them to me. Hah. The King Lear production itself was interesting, certain ideas i haven't thought of yet. So it was good exposure, but the endings confused me. Nevertheless, at least i was able to take something away from it right?
Anyway, shall go off for now. I'm meeting Fio, Joey and Eli to study tomorrow. By the way, I'm looking for a new blogskin. Been wanting to change it for awhile now, but it's hard to find one. I'm looking for something bright and fun like the one I'm using now. If any of you have seen anything. Please let me know! Arigato. =)
Toodles and G'night!
10:38 PM
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Wednesday, June 04, 2008
I discovered a new webcomic-
garfield minus garfield. It really is quite hilarious, poor Jon looks like more of a nutcase than just a nerd now that garfield is taken away. Some of the strips don't make sense though..
Midterms are finally over, so i'm quite happy. I'm also excited for the Youth BB camp that's coming up next week, although i would be missing most of the action since i have to go and watch a King Lear production =( Still, better than nothing eh. And i do think the production will be worth the money and sacrifice. Sorry dear Ariel for leaving you at camp, but you'll be ok with sis and the other girls since you've befriended them last year already eh.
Watched Indiana Jones and the Kingdom of the Crystal Skull yesterday with the family to celebrate finishing the midterms. Wahaha. It was pretty good i must say, although the ending spoilt the movie. I'm not going to say why though, in case any of you out there intend to watch it. If you're really curious then just ask me personally. The movie had a foward moving pace though, such that i didn't feel the 2 hour length of the movie. It also managed to retain the Indiana Jones feeling or atmosphere, so i give it 3 out of 5 stars.
That's it for today's rambling i suppose. see y'all another time.
6:06 PM
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Sunday, June 01, 2008
Hellooo little people, i'm back cos i've been tagged! so thanks
Joel Wong for keeping this blog alive!
1. Who are you chatting with now?:
Jia En and Joel Wong
2. What do you want the most now?:
BACKPACKING. who wants to join me??
3. What's going to happen tomorrow?:
study for lit paper on tues =S
4. Do you hate your friends sometimes?:
no, definitely not.
5. When do you wish to die?:
i wouldn't know. dont exactly have tt wish popping up.
6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?:
I've seen many =)
7. What impossible things you would wish to do?:
Uh.. fly? Hah! I don't know. meet some of the jdrama stars i s'pose.
8. Do you believe in eternal love?:
God's love is eternal =)
9. Have you broken someone's heart that he/she tried to commit suicide?:
No, don't think so.
10. Where is your favourite holiday destination?:
At the moment it's Australia.
11. Describe your other half.:
You mean my doppelganger?? She'd be scary and mean! o.O
12. What feelings do you hate the most?:
Lonliness
13. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?:
I try to, but i know i gotta try harder.
14. What're you looking forward to in the coming weeks?:
Youth-BB camp, the Quahes coming, HOLIDAYS
15. The most important thing in your life.:
God, Family, Friends
16. Who do you hope to be always there for you?:
God, Family, Friends
17. Do you find life meaningless?:
Nah~ I live for God.
18. Have you ever loved someone?:
Meh, i love God, my family, and friends. tt's about it really.
19. List one thing that you're scared of.:
being alone in the dark. but im getting over tt.
20. What's your greatest wish?:
Right now, BACKPACKING.
21. What if one of your loves betrayed you?:
Loves?? tt makes me sound like a... nvrmind. i'm changing it to "loved ones". well, then i'll have to learn forgiveness innit.
Instructions: Remove 1 question from above and replace it with your own. Tag 7 people, list them out at the end of the post. Notify them in their chatterbox that they've been tagged.
1.jiaen
2.lydia
3.fiona
4.and whoever else who still reads my blog since im too lazee to tag
5.
6.
7.
i'm breaking the rules and adding one more qns. HAH.
22. What is the one thing you'd never tell your parents?
my blog address!
11:22 PM
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